Grr

Mar. 17th, 2014 01:22 am
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I have temper. Most people don't realize I this, as I've worked for years to get to the point where I don't let it rule me. I realized I didn't want to be that person as it was destructive for both me and the people I interact with.

It take a lot to actually piss me off these days.

But you know a sure fire way to piss me off? Betray my confidence. If I explain an issue I have with someone else and then say I will talk to them about it once I am less grumbly than that means I will fucking talk to them when I am fucking ready to! This is for everyone's betterment.

This does not mean you immediately turn around the same day and tell them my issues.

Case in point. My beloved Changeling LARP. We have a new ST. I have issues with how he runs it. Matt (my roommate) also has issues, to the point that he doesn't want to go to the game anymore. I'm still willing to give it a chance, even though when we tried to explain this to the new ST he basically blew us off. Now the game is probably going to have to be reset because its gotten that messed up. Its perfectly understandable that Matt doesn't want to play now. He put a ton of effort into his character, creating a plot that got the whole game involved and probably not even going to be able to see the end of it? Kinda sucks. In game reasons, that would be okay, he was constantly surprised that his character lived another day.

So today another member of the troupe asks if we're still going to play and I explain that Matt probably isn't, but I am, though I have serious reservations. And lo and behold this evening the ST posts to the board the exact things I had issues with. Nice to know I can't trust my friend to keep things in confidence. Nice to know that ST will listen to people when it isn't me talking.

I am not a power gamer. I don't ask for special treatment and I like to let the plot take me where it will. But I hate monster of the week, I don't like hand wavey oh you killed the dragon yay bullshit (yes this happened. Major plot leading up to this for the entire year and it ends in less than minute game time. Killing a dragon. No.), I don't like everything being sunshine and light when its the freaking World of Darkness.

And now I don't know want to do as I don't want to blow up at people. But I can feel the tightness spreading through my shoulders and back and up around my skull. I just want to smash something right now I guess.

EDIT: My friend replied. Apparently the ST asked him for feedback and he gave it as I wasn't the only one who said the things I told him. So I've calmed down considerably. Still though, warn a girl!

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